Even though I had a number of in-the money finishes in cheaper entry tournaments, I was going down out of the money in the million chip buy-in tourneys. However I seemed to hit a losing run and had lost 25% of my total stack in a week or so. I had crossed the 20 million chip line in about 10 months on the site, and now decided that the only way I could make significant headway forwards was to play in more expensive MTTs, like those with a million chip buy-in where I would presumably find the most skilled opponents. When you make some changes to your game, you tend to lose form for a bit and doubt yourself.